Re-Wrting Your Entire Draft Is Hard….

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So, I’m re-writing my entire first draft from scratch, and I hate it. I feel like part Takano and part Ritsu as I’m writing.

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Yes, I fully admit to liking yaoi, which got me into reading gay erotic novels…

10481997_652412108184270_5622343190792635853_oIt’s that dirty little secret that try to keep under wraps, but husband found out and he just shakes his head at it. Seriously, he’s doing it right now. I would record him but I made a pact with him that I would keep him out of my otaku-ness as much as possible.

Now, if you’ve gotten curious about Sekai-Ichi Hatsukoi, I would recommend it…if you’re not too vanilla about relationships. In actuality, this relationship between two men could work. In fact, the writer has it so that even if the second protagonist was female, it would be still the same parallel relationship. I talk about this in another post about characterizaiton. Right now, I want to get back on track about revising my entire work.

So I’ve been spending time either on my Ipad working on my fanfiction and also re-writing my manuscript. Believe it or not, I actually get the manuscript chapter done before I write my fanficiton chapters. It’s sort of a reward for myself when I get some things done. However, this is what I’ve been going through working with this:

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To top it al off, I still have the first manuscript that I could possibly read over to get ideas, but then that makes me angirer. Have any of you ever read you frist draft? Now the writing process in school used to look like this:

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If you went to school in the United States, you probably remember this in elementary school. It’s still similar, but it’s more condensed to this:

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or this:
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Welcome to the nightmare of taking English or Lit classes in college. I look at this to wonder if I was an outiner, or a pantser. I think I’m more in the latter. Part of this has something to do with the aforementioned classes in college, and don’t forget the stupid papers you had to write in high school in MLA or APA format.

So, in short, I’m in revision hell. Is anybody else out there dealing wit h this?